I hope everyone had a joyous Christmas.....In our home it was peaceful. That's the goal in a home with Alz. For that I am thankful! Many stopped in for short visits to wish us well for the holidays. That worked well and time was enjoyed by all. It was considered a PERFECT DAY in the world in which we now live.
I'm finding it particularly hard to accept my new life during the Christmas Holidays. On one hand I'm so very grateful that most of "our" family somewhat understand how this ugly disease works and are accommodating so we still can share some time with them.
But I'm feeling this big empty hole inside of me and feel cheated out of this very special time of year. It's the one Holiday I like to get right in the middle of the chaos and hustle and bustle and turn sour faces into smiles and mess with the kids and bake and decorate and lights........... and the Christmas Programs I miss out on...... the Grandchildren so proudly preforming.........And I miss having the mess and noise and chaos in my house Christmas Day............
THAN.........I stop and think.......How selfish of me. TOM loved all these things too. We made quite a team. : ) But those are years gone by and I so miss who we were. Tom remembers back to how it was, the things we've done and enjoys reminiscing. But he doesn't seem to realize that is all missing now in our lives. I guess I do such a good job filling in for him and still doing my part too he doesn't realize the part of him that is gone. He works so hard at being in the present, it takes everything he's got.
This disease just plain stinks......It touches so many people in a very personal way, just by one afflicted person. It's like a thief in the night....as it is stealing the mind of one loved person it is slowly robbing from the life of others. Many are painfully touched by it.
BUT in spite of it all that it has been robbed from us...We must be thankful as we are so blessed by ALL of you that love us and find a way to share a part of you with us. And there are some of you out there, I know, are keeping an eye on us and making sure we are okay. To GOD I say thank you for YOU and to you," special angels" I say a special "thank you" to you too!
GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
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Super women took a nose dive into the ground. She hit with such force she was buried for weeks. A heavy equipment operator was called in by God. He dug till he found her. She was still breathing but emotionally frail.
He took one look at her and he felt something he has never felt before. So when God said take care of her and love her......he did. He tried to walk away but couldn't....God filled him with an abundance of all the qualities he already possessed and said use these now to help her grow to her full potential as one day you will need what she has to give......
So he put her on a pedestal and kept her dusted and polished for years. Everyday he would polish and shine her and gave her everything he had inside as God instructed.
As the years slowly passed........and she shined like the brightest star in the sky......(He did an awesome job).....but now he was slowly losing himself.
She asked God with tears in her eyes " where is he going?" God said "he is going back to where he first came. It's a long hard journey and he needs you to help him get there safely."
I will give you an abundance of all you need to help him on his journey back to me, for that is where he came from.
So to those who ask why? Because I believe in fairy tales...He is my knight in shining armor...... He literally guarded me with his life.....
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Super women took a nose dive into the ground. She hit with such force she was buried for weeks. A heavy equipment operator was called in by God. He dug till he found her. She was still breathing but emotionally frail.
He took one look at her and he felt something he has never felt before. So when God said take care of her and love her......he did. He tried to walk away but couldn't....God filled him with an abundance of all the qualities he already possessed and said use these now to help her grow to her full potential as one day you will need what she has to give......
So he put her on a pedestal and kept her dusted and polished for years. Everyday he would polish and shine her and gave her everything he had inside as God instructed.
As the years slowly passed........and she shined like the brightest star in the sky......(He did an awesome job).....but now he was slowly losing himself.
She asked God with tears in her eyes " where is he going?" God said "he is going back to where he first came. It's a long hard journey and he needs you to help him get there safely."
I will give you an abundance of all you need to help him on his journey back to me, for that is where he came from.
So to those who ask why? Because I believe in fairy tales...He is my knight in shining armor...... He literally guarded me with his life.....
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