What a lovely spring day.... I have big plans for my small flower bed. My girls gave me flowers for Mothers Day and I have done some rearranging and some expanding.
As my world grows smaller I make my limited space as cheery as I can. Adding all the elements I love to my confined space in hopes to keep my spirits up as I head in to the fog of this disease.
The road ahead looks scary and lonely..... for me. As Tom slips deeper into the world that lay ahead of him, he seems less effected by the change in himself and his life as it was.
I have to reach out for more help as it is not safe to leave Tom alone...... It's an inconvenience for others and their own busy lives I realize. But I'm not ready for the alternatives yet....... nor is he.
He shows signs of a continual decline but I am quick to recognize, accept and adjust quite quickly, taking only a short time to tuck away the pain for now and to grieve another day..... He needs me NOW in the best frame of mind that I can muster up. No it is NOT easy by no means but I can make a mental choice..... He can't.
I invited family out as Tom misses them and I felt they need to see the decline as it happens so they aren't suddenly shocked. So they can understand the choices I make and do the things I do.
It was a sad day for them... back to ignorance is bliss. He can sound better on the phone than what he actually is. I need the people that are the closest to me to see the reality of the word in which we live. We won't be the only people in their lives to experience this and in some small way maybe my experiences will be a guide for them.
With Alzheimer's.... Knowledge Is Your Friend & Tool For Survival..... Ignorance will surely lead you to an early grave......
❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥Someone Asked Why?❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥
Super women took a nose dive into the ground. She hit with such force she was buried for weeks. A heavy equipment operator was called in by God. He dug till he found her. She was still breathing but emotionally frail.
He took one look at her and he felt something he has never felt before. So when God said take care of her and love her......he did. He tried to walk away but couldn't....God filled him with an abundance of all the qualities he already possessed and said use these now to help her grow to her full potential as one day you will need what she has to give......
So he put her on a pedestal and kept her dusted and polished for years. Everyday he would polish and shine her and gave her everything he had inside as God instructed.
As the years slowly passed........and she shined like the brightest star in the sky......(He did an awesome job).....but now he was slowly losing himself.
She asked God with tears in her eyes " where is he going?" God said "he is going back to where he first came. It's a long hard journey and he needs you to help him get there safely."
I will give you an abundance of all you need to help him on his journey back to me, for that is where he came from.
So to those who ask why? Because I believe in fairy tales...He is my knight in shining armor...... He literally guarded me with his life.....
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Super women took a nose dive into the ground. She hit with such force she was buried for weeks. A heavy equipment operator was called in by God. He dug till he found her. She was still breathing but emotionally frail.
He took one look at her and he felt something he has never felt before. So when God said take care of her and love her......he did. He tried to walk away but couldn't....God filled him with an abundance of all the qualities he already possessed and said use these now to help her grow to her full potential as one day you will need what she has to give......
So he put her on a pedestal and kept her dusted and polished for years. Everyday he would polish and shine her and gave her everything he had inside as God instructed.
As the years slowly passed........and she shined like the brightest star in the sky......(He did an awesome job).....but now he was slowly losing himself.
She asked God with tears in her eyes " where is he going?" God said "he is going back to where he first came. It's a long hard journey and he needs you to help him get there safely."
I will give you an abundance of all you need to help him on his journey back to me, for that is where he came from.
So to those who ask why? Because I believe in fairy tales...He is my knight in shining armor...... He literally guarded me with his life.....
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