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Super women took a nose dive into the ground. She hit with such force she was buried for weeks. A heavy equipment operator was called in by God. He dug till he found her. She was still breathing but emotionally frail.

He took one look at her and he felt something he has never felt before. So when God said take care of her and love her......he did. He tried to walk away but couldn't....God filled him with an abundance of all the qualities he already possessed and said use these now to help her grow to her full potential as one day you will need what she has to give......

So he put her on a pedestal and kept her dusted and polished for years. Everyday he would polish and shine her and gave her everything he had inside as God instructed.

As the years slowly passed........and she shined like the brightest star in the sky......(He did an awesome job).....but now he was slowly losing himself.

She asked God with tears in her eyes " where is he going?" God said "he is going back to where he first came. It's a long hard journey and he needs you to help him get there safely."

I will give you an abundance of all you need to help him on his journey back to me, for that is where he came from.

So to those who ask why? Because I believe in fairy tales...He is my knight in shining armor...... He literally guarded me with his life.....

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Friday, January 22, 2010

Spaghetti Anyone?

Tom has been having trouble getting through the days..... he checks on the loggers and take Lilly and Emily for a run......... then he doesn't know what to do with himself.
 

ALL he wants to do is T R A P.  So he spends most of the day reading on this forum I found for him on the internet ......people talking trapping.  He loves it and I think it takes him to a different place in his mind.  But back to reality when he walks away.


This is when the reality of this disease sets in.  He "thinks" he can't go out and trap because.....he needs all this stuff and we don't have the money for it.

I wish it were so simple and I wish his interest was something more do-able.  It breaks my heart.  I wish there was a trapper around here that would take Tom now and than.....He gets cold easy and doesn't like to be gone away from me for very long or to far.  So a few trips would probably satisfy this deep desire in him.

I say that because this is what happened toward the end of his passion for fishing and deer hunting........A whole season if only I had......Someone took him a few times and that was it.  Than when the next season came he just didn't want to.

SO that leaves me trying to find ways to SNAP Tom out of his "MOODS?"  I got an idea from a movie he had watched just the other night.  I caught most of it.  And just to tell you...he didn't make the connection and I did it all right under his nose. 

FOOD/ AROMA seems to talk to him.....I think it makes the house smell like "Mama is cooking"  It's a warm fuzzy, loving and secure feeling.  I'm guessing at that but it works for depressed moods.  Also the sound and sight of me in the kitchen.  A "June Clever" kind of thing.

He loves my home made spaghetti sauce.  Well I didn't have everything I needed but I'm good at punting.  So for visual I let my sauce splatter out of the pot all over the stove and anything else that was in the vicinity.  Not much kitchen action going on watching spaghetti sauce spatter out of the pot so I come up with the idea of making home made spaghetti noodles.

Now Tom is at the computer in "Trapping Word" the whole time which is pretty much in my kitchen.  I threw flour on the flour, on myself, and on Emily .......WHAT A MESS!!!!!!!!

The whole time I'm thinking it's going to take HOURS to clean this up.  If this doesn't snap him out of his mood I'm going to be royally pissed.........I mean unhappy :)

I cooked up enough noodles for him and made him a plate.  "Sweetheart, why don't you have something to eat.  I made you a plate."  He got up from the computer and went to the table to eat, sat down and said "Mmmmm this looks good"...........
Than he looked up at me, my kitchen, and burst out laughing.... "MoM!! your a mess, so is the kitchen....Emily, what happened to you?"

End of ? mood and a happy person took his place.  He was in such a good mood he asked Harry (brother-in-law) over for a bite......

OH WHAT I DON"T DO TO GET THROUGH THE DAY WITH HIM............
I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings!

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