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Super women took a nose dive into the ground. She hit with such force she was buried for weeks. A heavy equipment operator was called in by God. He dug till he found her. She was still breathing but emotionally frail.

He took one look at her and he felt something he has never felt before. So when God said take care of her and love her......he did. He tried to walk away but couldn't....God filled him with an abundance of all the qualities he already possessed and said use these now to help her grow to her full potential as one day you will need what she has to give......

So he put her on a pedestal and kept her dusted and polished for years. Everyday he would polish and shine her and gave her everything he had inside as God instructed.

As the years slowly passed........and she shined like the brightest star in the sky......(He did an awesome job).....but now he was slowly losing himself.

She asked God with tears in her eyes " where is he going?" God said "he is going back to where he first came. It's a long hard journey and he needs you to help him get there safely."

I will give you an abundance of all you need to help him on his journey back to me, for that is where he came from.

So to those who ask why? Because I believe in fairy tales...He is my knight in shining armor...... He literally guarded me with his life.....

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Sunday, January 3, 2010

WELCOME "2010"

God didn't promise days without Pain, laughter without Sorrow, nor sun without Rain, but he did promise, Strength for the day, Comfort for the tears and Light for the way............. (author unkown)

"I AM WHERE GOD WANTS ME TO BE"   and  "I KNOW I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH HIM!"

I start my days with No expectations.... and I know no matter what the day brings,  God is with me.  I have no fear or anxiety for I have complete trust in the Lord.  I depend on GOD for my strength, courage, wisdom, patience and guidance.....

This disease is a very long journey down a not so fun road.  Many dedicated caregivers die before the one they care for......because of the stress and them neglecting their own "needs"  due to the lack of help and support that this disease demands.....

There just is no time or way for most care givers to get the breaks, rest and time they need just for themselves.

The answers seem so simple, to those not in these shoes.  If it was so simple the odds would favor the caregiver.

I am still in the first part of this journey.  This is challenging to say the least because Tom is young and in the prime of his life.... He is NOT aware of ALL his deficits, only the obvious ......

BUT through prayers, Tom knows and accepts his diagnosis.  NOT at first.  It took a "year" to get to that point.  Many never know and or don't believe anything is wrong with them.....  THIS  has made my load lighter than some....... For that I am grateful.

Than Tom had to learn to TRUST me with his well being and welfare and happiness.....  He's always trusted my love and intentions toward him but now we are talking about a whole different thing.....

 Once again my load is lighter than others...... Through prayer TOM has learned to trust me with his every being. This  took another year to get where we are.

Alzheimer is the same but unique in every individual.  If you seen one with Alzheimer........you've seen one.

Our journey didn't start out too great till I learned to accept it for what it is, how to deal with someone with a brain that is short circuiting in different areas, not knowing from moment to moment what is shorting out and what is burnt out......

I learned you have NO CONTROL, so you give that to God and ask for strength, wisdom, patience, guidance and to take the wheel because there is no map to follow on this journey.

I pray for those who don't have God in their lives through this journey or are in denial as acceptance is key for mostly the caregiver and secondly for the patient.  If you can't accept it for what it is you are FIGHTING a LOSING BATTLE and your life is doomed to be HELL ON EARTH!

We have good days and we have bad days....but it is what it is ..... and I feel fortunate that I have my faith in GOD to see me through.

So I look forward to this new year and the challenges that lie ahead because I know I am NOT alone!  AND I hope to have many more stories to share about our life out here in the woods with our now 4 girls (dogs)......     HAPPY NEW NEW!

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