A Peek Into Our World.......

Tom has been concerned about having a working riding lawn mower this summer.  We have an older model that has served us well in the past.  It has a few issues due to age, use and Tom.  Tom didn't feel it had another year in it.....

We have an early spring but due to lack of rain it will be awhile before we need to worry about making hay.  UNFORTUNATELY Tom's brain can not calculate that...

Tom's brain also can not calculate the fact that he probably does not need to have so much mown yard...ditch and woods.  Tom has worked hard all of his life.  That's what he knows.

 He hates the fact that he has no ambition... desire... want to... get up and go do something like he use to.  People who took naps were lazy... hated lazy people.. hates junky... unkempt yards.  His place is his last pride and joy.

Weather it be him or his working half (me) that keeps it mowed and looking beautiful.... it's important to him.  I'm glad at this point the something IS important to him.

It's hard to see the emergency in this by outside people.  Out side our world.  LIVING LIFE in the fast lane (normal life) in compared to us who get up in the morning wondering what to do today. 

I as in "ME" have no problem with what to do today..... My work is never ending.... BUT Tom struggles with that.  He knows he should want to.....needs too.... do something.  "WHAT" is the hard part because his ambition...is broke.  So if he can talk himself into SOMETHING he usually has to use my ambition...... my exhausted brain..... and my get up and go do this ..... to follow through. 

The scary part is he gets bursts of energy but his brain has a problem putting it to GOOD use.  That is what causes problems for me.  And when he is tired he fights it which makes his thinking and mood even more out of whack. 

That's where I have to keep an eye on him to make sure he isn't lighting fires or what ever else a mischievous kid would do or get into.................

SO that is why in his mind he needs to either A: get his lawn mower in running condition NOW... as in today... right this very minute.   B: buy a brand new one for only $991.99 on sale before the sale runs out.

Living on only his SSD........ A and B above are not possible.  He knows that BUT doesn't  "get it"  He knows people help us but doesn't  "get it"

It's like a child not understanding there is no Santa and it's really mom and dad buying the presents and they can't get you that real pony.  NOTE:  (Sorry if I popped some ones bubble about no Santa.  Not my intention.)

So we tore the lawn mower apart using my exhausted brain.... brought the deck in the house to beef it up as it has done battle with a few big rocks......

We charged the dead battery (umm... I mean DEAD) that we had to jump every time we needed to use it.  If you got off the seat out by the county road you had to walk back a quarter mile and get the van to jump start it again or push the lawn mower  across the yard to the van to start it....

And a set of blades are needed as the ones from last year are not recognizable.  But to Tom's credit .... he made one set last the whole season last summer. 

A few minor things like an O ring and two fine thread nuts to hold the blades on...... Oh yeah.... and gas!  Than we are ready for the grass to get long enough to cut.

KEY WORD for Tom is ........ "READY"........ not wondering .... how am I going to cut this grass. 

KEY WORD for ME is  "MONEY" to fix his lawn mower?

This is what we go through......after the lawn mower is running it will be something else.