I'm so excited about FALL being right around the corner... cooler temps, hunting & trapping season approaching, the grass slows down, the leaves changing color and slowly drift to the ground...... UNLESS a big wind goes through... lol, birds gathering, and there is this smell in the air....... I love the smell of fall almost better than fresh cut grass.........
BEST of all........ FALL brings a flood of vivid memories and very deep emotional feelings of the many adventures that Tom and I share............
Yesterday we mowed our 1/4 mile driveway ditch...... something we do in the fall. Than Tom helped me pile all the fire wood by his shack......and I talked about how excited I was about trapping and about me skinning the varmints and putting them on stretchers...... I seen this brought a warm glow in his eyes and his face went soft...... "are you really?" he asks...... "are you kidding me?..... I replied........ That was so much fun last year... I can't wait.....!"
This set his mood..... as now we are expecting cooler but wet days ahead. Boredom or feeling trapped doesn't make for a pleasant time. This morning when I announced the weather his reply was.... "I'll have to start a fire in the shack"....... a little bit later an excited silly voice came from the bedroom where Tom lay sipping his morning coffee...... "I remember when we first bought this land (in the fall) and we stayed in a tent out here and you cooked me breakfast"....... "On the picnic table, on a little cook stove fighting mosquitoes and rain" I added...... We both burst out laughing.
This place was a mud hole but it was OUR mud hole and we loved it.........
That was Fall of 2002..... I was noticing then that something wasn't right with Tom but I couldn't put my finger on it....... I also did not know people at that age got Alzheimer's and that it wasn't that rare.
He slowly declined till I finally said.... "ENOUGH......there is something wrong with him." He was diagnosed the Fall 2006 with Early Onset Alzheimer's. It actually was a relief to know what was wrong so we knew how to deal with it.......
So here we are in our own little woods we call home........ still making memories..... living life as it is....... taking one day at a time........ "I'm so glad FALL is here!" ....sigh...
❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥Someone Asked Why?❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥❥
Super women took a nose dive into the ground. She hit with such force she was buried for weeks. A heavy equipment operator was called in by God. He dug till he found her. She was still breathing but emotionally frail.
He took one look at her and he felt something he has never felt before. So when God said take care of her and love her......he did. He tried to walk away but couldn't....God filled him with an abundance of all the qualities he already possessed and said use these now to help her grow to her full potential as one day you will need what she has to give......
So he put her on a pedestal and kept her dusted and polished for years. Everyday he would polish and shine her and gave her everything he had inside as God instructed.
As the years slowly passed........and she shined like the brightest star in the sky......(He did an awesome job).....but now he was slowly losing himself.
She asked God with tears in her eyes " where is he going?" God said "he is going back to where he first came. It's a long hard journey and he needs you to help him get there safely."
I will give you an abundance of all you need to help him on his journey back to me, for that is where he came from.
So to those who ask why? Because I believe in fairy tales...He is my knight in shining armor...... He literally guarded me with his life.....
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Super women took a nose dive into the ground. She hit with such force she was buried for weeks. A heavy equipment operator was called in by God. He dug till he found her. She was still breathing but emotionally frail.
He took one look at her and he felt something he has never felt before. So when God said take care of her and love her......he did. He tried to walk away but couldn't....God filled him with an abundance of all the qualities he already possessed and said use these now to help her grow to her full potential as one day you will need what she has to give......
So he put her on a pedestal and kept her dusted and polished for years. Everyday he would polish and shine her and gave her everything he had inside as God instructed.
As the years slowly passed........and she shined like the brightest star in the sky......(He did an awesome job).....but now he was slowly losing himself.
She asked God with tears in her eyes " where is he going?" God said "he is going back to where he first came. It's a long hard journey and he needs you to help him get there safely."
I will give you an abundance of all you need to help him on his journey back to me, for that is where he came from.
So to those who ask why? Because I believe in fairy tales...He is my knight in shining armor...... He literally guarded me with his life.....
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