Family Visit

What a lovely spring day.... I have big plans for my small flower bed.  My girls gave me flowers for Mothers Day and I have done some rearranging and some expanding.

As my world grows smaller I make my limited space as cheery as I can.  Adding all the elements I love to my confined space in hopes to keep my spirits up as I head in to the fog of this disease. 

The road ahead looks scary and lonely..... for me.  As Tom slips deeper into the world that lay ahead of him, he seems less effected by the change in himself and his life as it was.

I have to reach out for more help as it is not safe to leave Tom alone...... It's an inconvenience for others and their own busy lives I realize.  But I'm not ready for the alternatives yet....... nor is he.

He shows signs of a continual decline but I am quick to recognize, accept and adjust quite quickly,  taking only a short time to tuck away the pain for now and to grieve another day..... He needs me NOW  in the best frame of mind that I can muster up.  No it is NOT easy by no means but I can make a mental choice..... He can't.

I invited family out as Tom misses them and I felt they need to see the decline as it happens so they aren't suddenly shocked.  So they can understand the choices I make and do the things I do.

It was a sad day for them... back to ignorance is bliss.  He can sound better on the phone than what he actually is.  I need the people that are the closest to me to see the reality of the word in which we live.  We won't be the only people in their lives to experience this and in some small way maybe my experiences will be a guide for them.

With Alzheimer's.... Knowledge Is Your Friend & Tool For Survival..... Ignorance will surely lead you to an early grave......

WANTED...Sitter For Big Boy : )

Tom's back has been giving him some grief this past week.  That worked in my favor as my back is really messed up and I need to be going to the Chiropractor.

It is now not safe to leave Tom home alone even if he is sleeping as he has been blinking in and out of his world and the one as we all know it....  meaning he has taken up wandering.  Sometimes I think I would like his world better...... lol

So we are now going to the chiropractor together and he keeps us together working on one and than the other.  But when I got to the grocery store after our appointments I wasn't sure what to do with Tom.

Deciding it was a bad idea to leave him in the van and chancing him wandering off I convinced him to come in the store with me.  Okay... that wasn't a good idea either so I found out.

He headed with radar to all the junk food he likes and was filling the cart.  Oh man... chips (6 bags) pop, corn dogs (boxes), side pork, pizza.......$100.00 later after slipping some things back on the shelf we retreated back to our little sanctuary in the woods.

I wonder how he would do with a sitter...... Big Boy Sitter that is.  : )

'OH SHIT'

We had an "OH SHITTT" day this past week....... You know... when you watch something happening in what seems like slow motion and there is nothing you can do to stop it.... so you sit there watching helplessly while saying.... "OH SHITTT!!!"

Well we needed to have our fiberglass septic tank pumped and I stress the word NEED.  I know you have to fill the tank back up with water to keep the tank from floating above ground.  I decided to use the water in our cistern for that and the water guy would follow later that day to fill me back up.......

Well it didn't go that smoothly... I had 300 gals of water in the tank when we seen the ground cracking ever so slowly around the tank.... than dirt started to fall into spots around it..... our tank was floating out of the ground.  Thats when I said "OH SHITTTT"

Lucky for a quick thinking neighbor who brought over some planks and parked his diesel truck on top the tank.....

That was all good but than I seen the pipe from the house had separated from the tank......  No I didn't say  "OH SHIT'"again... ..... I said "Oh boy...What am I going to do now?"

You have to realize that Tom is sitting in the house watching out the window not all that concerned.  "clueless!"

Well Dick helped me put it all back together... I ended up being the one in the trench and in the end Dick laughed and said "She got right in the shit and all without hesitation... you'd make a good plummer."    I said "no thanks... I've got a job!"