Just Another Fun Day!

I got up this morning thinking "OH POO-EY" here we go again! I sensed that anxiety again. He did say when I got up to let the girls out, make coffee and bring him a cup "I wished those dreams would go away!!!!!"

So with hardly a pause when he got out of bed he put his cloths on while informing me we were taking a BIG tree down. It's been bugging him a long time and today was the day!

I said "al-righty than.... do I have time to get dressed?" He said "yah...I'm in no hurry. I have to sharpen my saw first."

Well that doesn't take any time so I was throwing my cloths on, made the bed and out the door behind him.

He had to cut a smaller tree down first that was in the way..... It didn't fall where it was suppose to because "I didn't push it right?" But it was small so he just cut sections till it was all on the ground while telling me I have a lot to learn.

I thought to myself "way to go...now your going to get lessons in falling a tree"

YEP I was right. He said "now look at this tree and tell me what you see." "Ummmm a really big tree!" I could tell by the look on his face, that was the wrong answer so before it went from bad to worse and he was not appreciating my sense of humor at the moment I said "just tell me what I need to do because I am NOT a logger and I do not have the knowledge you have."


That worked. So we fell the BIG tree without incident and right where he wanted it to go. WHEW!

We had a good old fire going in no time at all ..... He found a log and he sat listening to the fire crackle. I could sense the anxiety he woke with that morning, slowly diminish into the smoke that floated up into the sky.

He remained more confused than usual the rest of the day but at least his mood was better and the anxiety was gone.
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Lack of sleep and "any" stress can send them downward. He doesn't sleep well all night and the dreams are relentless. After his coffee in the morning he goes back to sleep and sleeps hard for a couple hours.

Being without a vehicle is the stress he is reacting to right now. His loss of freedom and self are brought to the forefront of his mind with a dead car sitting in the yard and the reliance on others just to go a few miles down the road for a can of gas.

"We are fine as God is watching over us and our ANGELS are swooping in and taking care of us."