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Super women took a nose dive into the ground. She hit with such force she was buried for weeks. A heavy equipment operator was called in by God. He dug till he found her. She was still breathing but emotionally frail.

He took one look at her and he felt something he has never felt before. So when God said take care of her and love her......he did. He tried to walk away but couldn't....God filled him with an abundance of all the qualities he already possessed and said use these now to help her grow to her full potential as one day you will need what she has to give......

So he put her on a pedestal and kept her dusted and polished for years. Everyday he would polish and shine her and gave her everything he had inside as God instructed.

As the years slowly passed........and she shined like the brightest star in the sky......(He did an awesome job).....but now he was slowly losing himself.

She asked God with tears in her eyes " where is he going?" God said "he is going back to where he first came. It's a long hard journey and he needs you to help him get there safely."

I will give you an abundance of all you need to help him on his journey back to me, for that is where he came from.

So to those who ask why? Because I believe in fairy tales...He is my knight in shining armor...... He literally guarded me with his life.....

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Thursday, February 2, 2012

Febuary Update

This past month once again has been good.  Tom is still in a good place... and there hasn't been any other changes in Tom.

Teddy came to visit as he was in Mn. for a short time.  This was exciting to us as we are pretty much hermits out here.

That evening while watching hockey together Tom fainted.  He hit his head on our concrete floor.  He was out less than a minute.

I, as did Teddy wanted to take Tom straight to the emergency room.  Tom refused.  So as second best I took his blood pressure, did a battery of tests to look for any sign of stroke etc.  He was just fine except for a splitting headache and dizzy.

Next day being Monday I called the clinic to get Tom in to see "his" Dr just to make sure.  His Dr wasn't in till the next day.  Nothing had changed with Tom as I kept a close eye for any indication something wasn't right.  Tom refuses to see anyone but HIS DR  whom he trusts.

Teddy left which I assumed was because Tom would be just sleeping / resting ... Not up to going for a ride or anything.   I knew Teddy was worried about Tom and wanted him to go in NOW.  But Tom is a big boy and can still make these decisions and needs to be respected as with anyone else.

IF something didn't seem right with Tom I wouldn't have given him a choice.  I told my daughter it was like telling Teddy NOT to get back on a bike as he has had 3 accidents and two should have clearly taken his life.  He will suffer the rest of his life with the damage those accidents caused to his body.  Does he listen to what we all who love him say?  No... he is a big boy and it's his life.

Needless to say Tom seen his own Dr the next day... He did a battery of tests to look for any weakness or neurological damage but seen none.  Blood pressure was great and the bump on the head looked good.

The Dr said I did just fine knowing what to look for.  That he didn't need to go in that night as he is clearly feeling better every day.  UNLESS something changes.  People faint everyday out of the blue... it's not alarming unless he does it often.

I love Tom with all my heart.  I do take care of him to the best of my ability... I have devoted my life to that.  It is a choice... and I have chosen to do so.

I'm sorry his family does not feel that way and question my care for him.  They have false ideas which they all conjured up between themselves without even knowing any facts.  The facts that I have openly shared are dismissed for their false beliefs.

WHY does this bother me?  Because I was looking to them for moral support.  Tom isn't an easy person with dementia to care for.  None of them really are but I try to see to it that he can live life to the fullest of his abilities and give up my life freedoms to do so.

It just hurts me ... that's all.  I don't want to care... but I do.

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